Navigating Grief + Sensuality

Navigating grief + the spectrum of sensuality pt 2 @samsmithworld x @johnlegend lay me down //

Thought #1

You ever been so devastated by love that it brought you to your knees? // This year my relationship to this woman I Loved deeply ended. 2 years. A house. A dog. Major surgery/illness. Death. Depression. Entangled in each others lives heavy. Marriage in the plans. It needed to end. Neither one of us knew how to leave when it was the right time. I assume because we were tied at the soul. So we overstayed in love with each other trying to grasp for pieces of the past that had long expired. Never thought I'd be at the point where I could say I was grateful for lessons but today I am immensely grateful for the lessons and the space I've taken to grieve. 
The empty chair was unintentional but speaks volumes to everything. 
 

Thought #2

Do you ever get tired of wanting the thing and just want to enjoy the thing? // These last six months have taught me to stop accepting scraps for love. I lived on scraps in the last year or maybe more of my relationship. In all honestly my love was probably scraps in return considering I had long checked out I just didn't know how to move. One of the things I deeply understand now is that it's not about the frame but the content of the picture. The house can look good from the outside but is there any food? Are the lights on? The relationship can look good on paper but is there any real sustainable love flowing through the veins of that connection? The job can be well paying and prestigious but is it sucking the life out of your soul? We get caught up in the frame and forget that the content of the picture is what we have to live with. It's worth it to slow down, to quit, to re-evaluate and yes it's worth it even to walk away. #reclaimingyoursexy

Navigating grief + the spectrum of sensuality pt 2 @samsmithworld x @johnlegend lay me down // Do you ever get tired of wanting the thing and just want to enjoy the thing? // These last six months have taught me to stop accepting scraps for love. I lived on scraps in the last year or maybe more of my relationship. In all honestly my love was probably scraps in return considering I had long checked out I just didn't know how to move. One of the things I deeply understand now is that it's not about the frame but the content of the picture. The house can look good from the outside but is there any food? Are the lights on? The relationship can look good on paper but is there any real sustainable love flowing through the veins of that connection? The job can be well paying and prestigious but is it sucking the life out of your soul? We get caught up in the frame and forget that the content of the picture is what we have to live with. It's worth it to slow down, to quit, to re-evaluate and yes it's worth it even to walk away. #reclaimingyoursexy #linkinbio #thick #curvy #bodylove #bodypositive #bodyposi #plussize #yoga #plussizeyogi #blackgirlmagic #naturalhair #womeninbusiness #love #dating #blackgirlmagic #travel #thickthighs #effyourbeautystandards #mybodyisnotanapology #honormycurves #bigandblunt #selfiesforselflove #nobodyshame #qwoc #newmoms #marriage #moms #postpartumcare #momlife #womeninbusiness

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